Possible squick warning if you're a guy.
Every month (sometimes twice a month) when my period starts, I get nauseous and sick and kinda lose my mind. Right now I'm biting my hand every couple of seconds to stop thinking about my uterus. Earlier I was screaming into pillows and watching some recorded Housewives of NYC so I could yell at them too.
My body just can't handle it, especially when I get it twice a month. I'm 20 lbs underweight, so when I suddenly lose so much blood the rest of my system drains as well. It doesn't matter that having a period is "natural", my body doesn't seem to understand that. My immune system goes down the toilet, I start vomiting and getting diarhhea, my head and shoulders go almost numb and my legs hurt like a bitch, I usually faint at least once, and the pain comes close to making me punch myself in the gut.
I figured it was on its way when I started getting upset over the thought of hanging out with people. For some reason, I get really anti-social and defensive during the start of my period. I want to tell everybody how much I hate them and I come up with reasons to hate them, sometimes really illogical reasons, like "Iris is such an idiot for liking me so I should tell her I hate her so she'll learn something". Wtf, hormones, that's just retarded. But it's really intense. It took all my willpower to ignore Iris's phone calls yesterday so I wouldn't say something that retarded. I WANTED to say that. I wanted to call up everyone on my contact list and tell them exactly why they all suck so much.
Anyway. I feel like shit. I'm going to a... a... whatever they're called... female doctor. My aunt recommended the one who tied her tubes a few years ago. I wonder if I'll have to do that at such a young age since I can't seem to gain weight. Might be kinda nice, since I've firmly wanted to adopt since I was five years old, but I don't like the idea of hormone pills every day for the rest of my life. I dunno. I'm scared and angry at whatever's wrong with me. I thought I could make it go away if I ignored it and just tried to be healthier or if I gained weight, but nothing's working.
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Where have you been?
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And I know that it's so cliché to tell you that everyday I spend with you is the new best day of my life
Everyone watching us just turns away with disgust It's Jealously, they can see that we've got it going on~
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"There's nothing you can do
To keep it out
There's nothing you can do
Just scream and shout, saying:
I'm so lucky lucky
I'm so lucky lucky
I'm so lovely lovely
I'm so lovely lovely"
- Lucky: By Twice Lucky
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sometimes the best things are sketches because of the liberty and lack of expectation that motivated them.
I was wondering if you'd like to help me with an amv. what every picture you submit for it will be shown in it on youtube with full credit to you, the artist^^ here's the link to my journal for it [link]
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I told you just to blame bob!
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I was there at the NYCC as the first Katara. Lol, Hi.
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Micheal Jackson R.I.P
Micheal Jackson lives on!
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Amazing icon made by :[link] Eevee! <3
But i love you for it!!
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